Thu 26 Jan 2012
Given January’s blush remains pink enough to paint cheeks (and because I am still unable to comfortably wear all of my pants) I trust I am not the only one who wanders the path of resolutions. I remain uncertain the exact moment that my wisdom divorced my restraint in December that began my three week binge.
And I do mean binge.
I fell so hard off the No-gluten wagon that I sprawled on the floor in a messy paste of Cheeto grease and cutout cookie sprinkles. My self-control was so badly fractured that I am still in dietary halo traction. My portion-control button was also concussed in the incident. I also don’t know why I thought that I would be the one person on the earth spared this holiday season from the consequence of the over indulgence.
Same reason I knew I would be the mother to cure sibling rivalry, another job Eve botched, I guess.
The story I told myself seemed plausible enough and suspended my disbelief at the time like the fairy tales of my childhood when I still believed in magic spells and potent witch rage. The gossamer of fiction spun its own web as I advanced from bagels to pasta. (Do you have any idea what a plate of lasagna tastes like after two years off gluten? Better than sex, ice-cream and getting a hull of popcorn out of a back molar. Perfect, saucy, decadent ectasy.)
I wasn’t worried, mind you. The spell of the story bound me to the promises of Far Far Away, the land where a mother of four children can eat without regard self-control, portion or boundaries.
“You work out regularly,” I prided to myself.
“You’ve worked out regularly for years,” I amended after cheesecake was introduced into the rotation.
“Muscle has memory,” I reassured myself as Christmas abdicated to the New Year’s nachos with extra cheese and sour cream. Lots of sour cream.
“Gonna get back to it Monday,” I vowed as 2012 ushered in its new hope and possibilities.
Monday came and went. The kids didn’t have to go back to school until Tuesday, and The Husband had an unexpected, extra day off.
“We can’t bite the hand of the vacation fairy!” we chortled, our mouths already full of Layes Potato Chips and Deans Dip.
Tuesday morning came in a flourish. I dashed from room to room getting the family machine revved without any notice of the extra dribble in my middle. It wasn’t until I went to get dressed in pants with a real waist band instead of my virtuous workout shorts, that I realized my zipper was in pain. It quivered and moaned like an Olympic weight-lifter going for gold. I actually heard it cry out.
I believe it whispered the F-word.
Actually, I must confess it cried out the F-word in pain.
“Gravy, woman!” It seemed to moan, what have you been eating?
On the other side of January, I’m here to tell you, zippers in pain don’t lie.
As such, been eating a lot of salad since that day.
Salads with the occasional handful of M&Ms. I’m not a sadist!
Thought you might want to take a peek at what happens when my girls help chop:
You say I took the name in vain
I don’t even know the name
But if I did, well really, what’s it to you?
There’s a blaze of light in every word
It doesn’t matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah