Thriving

Posted by jael on May 5, 2012 in Marriage, Spiritual Journey |

Many life changing transitions come down to one sentence.

The phone rings,
the in-box pings,
the letter arrives registered
and requires signature,
and silent words unspoken
crash like thunder in a storm.

Such sentences silence hearts and still rooms as they simultaneously shift everything into two indelible categories:

Before X and After X.

My life changed 10 days ago with such a sentence said by The Husband, “I hate that you are not thriving Here.”

He didn’t say it in a mean way, it was a soul cry. He declared it from the core of his being.

Loved ones, never a rooster gave more of a wake-up call.

The love beneath his words still wrap me in a bear hug.

This man,
my best friend,
all he wants is to maximize me,
he delights in the good use
of my gifts and talents
in the service of others,
the work I choose,
and the community I make.

My recent Mistress Silence sabatoged the unity of my marriage.

The husband’s sentence interupted my understanding in a most welcome way like The Word being burst open before me.

Precious family, please know I have made thriving my new battle cry.

Reappropriated as an action verb, I choose to thrive.

I talk,
I write,
I work,
I share gifts,
I show up,
I exercise,
I command laundry,
I meet new people,
I give my husband the
“gift of presence.”

In it’s way, it’s like being born anew.

You say I took the name in vain
I don’t even know the name
But if I did, well, really, what’s it to you?
There’s a blaze of light in every word
It doesn’t matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah!

4 Comments

LG
May 6, 2012 at 8:16 pm

OH, I smell a beatitude spiral happening and my Spirit calls out: Hallelujah!! You put it on paper – I keep you to it… Sorry for you!! Thank you, thank you!!!


 
jael
May 8, 2012 at 6:37 am

Hold me to it!

I welcome your accountibility partnership.

Love you so!!


 
Sara
May 7, 2012 at 6:05 am

I am smiling and doing a happy dance in my pj’s in the bathroom, where I read your blog post standing next to the sink, this morning!!!!
What a way to kick off a Monday morning! Thrive! I love how that word taps into something joyful and alive inside. She’s back! Watch out, world! xoxoxo


 
jael
May 8, 2012 at 6:36 am

Your kindness prompts a jig of my own! xoxo


 

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